Ever since my botched hysterectomy, I have been deathly afraid of seeing any medical professional. I feared that I would lose whatever control I have on the way of my health. I have for years been under the delusional thought that somehow nurses and doctors know more about me than I know about me. I was to sit there and do as they say and not question them on the why what for and how comes. I have come a long way from that time in my life. I have hours and hours of training in anatomy, and I know me inside and out.
Last night I was in so much pain that I ended up having to call my husband from work to come and get me. It was either he comes and takes me to the hospital or I was going for a 2000 dollar ride with our local ambulance service. I didn’t think I would make it, the 45 minute wait for him to get here and then the 45-minute ride there. But by the time I had gotten there I was feeling a little better, my pain going from a 20 to a 15. I was rushed into a room with the glee of the medical staff excited about the removal of my gallbladder, of course, I dashed all their hopes when I told them it will stay unless it has exploded.
After the blood test, EKG’s and examinations I was told that I had inflammation of the intestines, which if you look this diagnoses up, it meant that I had a plethora of different illnesses. Of course, I was told that my 133/78 BP might say I need to get in to see my regular GP so I could be put on heart meds. I have no idea why they wouldn’t think that someone in so much pain wouldn’t have an elevated blood pressure. Can we say DUH!! Boy just think if they had seen when my BP hit an all-time high of 157/109 they would have sang and danced as I was rushed into the operating room for a triple bypass. It’s freaking scary to go to a hospital!!
Oh and I am like grossly obese to their Jane like a character they have in their medical books, even though all test they did showed that I have an excellent liver, healthy pancreas, my gallbladder is perfect and I am healthier than most 49-year-olds. But I am grossly obese. I have to laugh!! I was told I was to be given Pepcid for my problem as well as a slurry that is supposed to coat and soothe the GI tract. I could have given myself herbal remedies once home, but I was informed that I had to have it. I had not right at that moment to say no. I did tell them that I would not be partaking in their crappy, does not help pain meds.
I was not the perfect patient, but I wasn’t a witch either. I wanted to know what was happening and I wanted a say in what they would be able to do for me. As the nurse said that I would be taking this shit, I looked her in the eye and said I know how to get rid of this crap from my body, so let’s get this over with. She looked a bit wary and didn’t push the issue. The medicine did not help, I prayed that the multitude of side effects would not happen and that my body would be able to heal from this crap they just pumped into my arm. I was lucky to have the healthy body I have, for the medicines didn’t harm me.
I was allowed to go home, it was 4 am when I got back. I took my CBD —-> which the doctor had no idea what that even was. I took off all the clothes I wore to the hospital and changed into new clothes, washed up very well and went to bed. I slept until 1 pm the next day.
I have figured out that I have leaky gut and my ulcer has opened up due to stress I have had going on for the past 9 months. Sometimes the body just wears down, and we need to stop and give it love and good things to help it heal. I started on herbs to help relieve my intestinal wall, help improve the ulcers as well as help the digestive tract. I am using CBD to help with any pain I may experience, the added bonus is that they have found that CBD heals any gastrointestinal disorders.
I found that my fear of losing control in a medical situation is not going to happen, that I have the right to say yes or no when it comes to my treatments. I can ask any question I want to. Once I found out the problem, I am able to use natural remedies to help my body heal itself. I am so proud of myself and so relieved that I am able to deal with this horrifying past hurts and treat them entirely. I was able to put another past belief behind me.
I am on the road to recovery, I still have some pain but nothing like I had, my herbs will help me to heal completely without having to deal with side effects. You do have the power to heal, you only have to trust and learn how to stand up for your rights to heal naturally.