Impatience

Ohh the joys of impatience, they are my real virtue in life.  It doesn’t help that I am a Sagittarius and have no way of finishing what I start.  It’s in the stars I shall be cursed for all time because of the sign I was born under.  Sounds pretty ridiculous huh?

I do have a problem with starting too many fires only to have to do double time to get them all put out promptly, throw one thing in the mix that was not planned for and watch me wig out.  I am getting better but when it has to do with something I want to do I can get pretty monstrous.

My day was good at the start as things started to come into alinement I was thrown a curve ball by a company that was supposed to be here an hour earlier than they arrived.  This put me behind by a couple of hours and then the things I thought I would have had done,  WELL, they are not done! I love that, I love that? I love that!! I love that.  No matter how you say it, I just have to love that!

The joys of relearning how to cope with the emotions I have set out in my world, I am able to control them in a more childlike manner. I don’t know if that is such a good thing for others though.  The other morning after having my husband snark off a bit I ended up taking my hair towel off, wading it up, throwing said cloth at his face, I  hit him dead on.  The look on his face should have been on a capital one commercial.  PRICELESS! I stood but a moment and then spouted off as I walked away, that was childish, and I LOVE IT!!

It is so freeing to be able to be who I want to be the real me. The other day as my son was having one of his mad moments I had about enough of the pity party he wanted to have for himself, as I hugged him goodbye, I tried to be super upbeat asking him to keep me up with a new project he had started, his Eeyore voice grated on my last positive cell, and I ended up telling to stop being an asshole.  I walked into the house and left him to deal with it. He seemed to get the point.

The people around me notice the change, and yet they don’t know what to do about it.  Gone are the days of trying to keep the peace, trying to keep them happy. It isn’t my job to make sure they don’t make a fool or do something foolish.  I don’t have to keep the peace, and I am not going to live on eggshells.  Life is what you make of it, I having been taught that a woman’s place is last, has ended.  I eat with everyone, no more cold dinners, if I am hungry before the ole man gets home, I eat.  I don’t sit in the back of a vehicle unless I want to.  I will not lie and allow someone to make me feel dumb. To do so is an injustice to me.

I am so proud of who I am become, the real me as I once was before it was beaten out of me.  I am not a victim I am a survivor.  I am having so much fun allowing the first thoughts in my mind come from my lips.  The look from others is great.  I get so many laughs, people can see that I am real and down to earth.  I love those kinds of folks that just say what they feel from their heart.  It doesn’t offend when you come from your heart as well. I meditate now all the time, there is no set hour or two.  I get in a quiet frame of mind and listen to my mind.  I love everything that comes up.  When I get mad, I catch myself and love that past hurt that came up as anger.   Our reaction to something is a past hurt or limited belief that needs to be heard and enjoyed.

I meditate now all the time, there is no set hour or two.  I get in a quiet frame of mind and listen to my mind.  I love everything that comes up.  When I get mad, I catch myself and love that past hurt that came up as anger.   Our reaction to something from a previous pain or limited belief that needs to be heard and enjoyed.

I love this meme I saw on facebook the other day:  Promote what you love instead of bashing what you hate.

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I love that I am impatient, I love that I have a child like way of handling stress,  I love that I am a curvy girl, I love that I can be funny sarcastic when the need arises, I love all of me!

By the way, do the world a big favor, find the person that is you and allow them the freedom to express how they really feel no matter where you are at or what you are doing. People like real!  K?

Love to all of you,

WWYHS

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