I am watching myself change in the most remarkable of ways. I am waiting as I turn my whole mindset. The words that were whispered to keep me distracted, limited and hurting are all falling away so much faster than I thought possible. You don’t have to see significant changing in your life either. It is all suddenly clear as the past hurts fall away to reveal who you really are deep down. The fakeness of the world becomes clearer too. I am amazed when how I allow the thoughts that are not mine to worry about go. I love them and let them move along.
Yesterday was one of the noisiest days I have had so far. A lot of past thoughts on my ex and his wife came up. I realized after sitting and listening I was coming from past hurts when I meditated and sat with those ideas I could see how it is over dramatic and unreal. I don’t have to care what my ex-husband thinks every again. I can see that he has lots of his own unhealed past hurts to resolve.
I am so thankful for the day that he chewed me out after I asked for his help, not only did he help to break that glimmer I had put on him, but he set me free to not ever have to give one shit about what he thinks of me or any of his bits of advice. He gave the best gift ever to me that day, he set me free!
When we sit and watch, listen to those thoughts we can see where those inside ideas are really based off of past fears we had but had not healed from.
There was a picture of my little granddaughter that came up today, it was from four years ago. I shared the photo again with the quote I wrote; The memories of the love you gave and received back, are all you will remember for that year when you let go of the limited, past, fear-based, hurts. It provides love the room to come shining through.
I feel like I have a new weapon that I get to carry throughout the rest of my days. It is my secret weapon of mass destruction on the limited past thoughts that come up during my day and nights. I have thought about anything that is from past hurts, fake news, I blast it with my secret weapon. Kyle Cease taught it to me. It’s the fastest killer of negative thinking I have ever seen. I know it works because I use this secret weapon every day. This gun has easy to use instructions as well, anyone can use it no matter their age physical health or gender.
I’ll tell you this though, you have to be in good mental health before you can use it though. It took me a couple of months of self-healing past, limited, fear-based thoughts. It’s just like any other weapon out there you have to practice, practice practice. I think I might put some more practice words up there. If you don’t condition yourself than like anything else, it will not work like it should. Okay, want to know what this secret high tech weapon is? First, let me tell you what you need to do to get yourself healthy enough to use it.
First, let me tell you what you need to do to get yourself conditioned enough to use it.
You need to eat right for your body, feeding your body pre-packaged, GMO filled, MSG, high fatty meals will not help you with being at your best for this weapon. Unhealthy fats like->>Artificial trans fats (or trans fatty acids) are created in an industrial process that adds hydrogen to liquid vegetable oils to make them more robust. The primary dietary source of trans fats in processed food is “partially hydrogenated oils.” Look for them on the ingredient list on food packages. Stopping for fast food every night will not have you in the best condition you can be.
The next conditioning so you are able to use this incredible weapon, healing your past that you shoved down deep inside and you are ignoring every time you need to find a distraction, via, tv, social media, fake news or drama from others. This one is indeed the toughest but most beneficial. You have to make time for yourself. Most folks I have run across would instead make up excuses than to face those deep-seated fears they have ignored for decades. I can’t blame them, it is scary, and it is the death of the old you. It’s such a crime that we are all taught to fear the end, and the mind uses this to keep us in a limited space. It’s crazy how one little thing like oh a bill needs to be paid, it’s registered as death. Life changes, omg there’s another death.
Third is forgiving and Forgetting!! There is a reason you are told to forget! I found this out as I was doing the healing past hurts exercises. You do not have to keep remembering that you were once worried. There is this remarkable part of the human that will never allow you to get hurt in that same way again, IF YOU ALLOW FOR HEALING<<<< YOU FORGIVE AND FORGET! Allow for that past hurt to go on. Like I said before you will not ever hurt like that again. Okay here is an example, if you touch a heated stove, will you go back and feel it still. NO not unless you like the pain. Our body saves that information, so I don’t have to walk around continually saying don’t touch the stove when it is hot. How bad would it be if we had to walk around holding our arms in fear that they may fall off??
Okay here is an example, if you touch a heated stove, will you go back and feel it again. NO not unless you like the pain. Our body saves that information, so I don’t have to walk around continually saying don’t touch the stove when it is hot. How bad would it be if we had to walk around holding our arms in fear that they may fall off?? Ohh how about your head, if that wasn’t screwed on we all would be walking overheads blindly. There really isn’t any reason to keep reliving or remembering the things we do!
I don’t have to allow the past hurts to stay in the forefront of my mind. I don’t have to worry that I will be bothered like I once was. I DO… I DO have to let the past hurts go! If I keep shoving them deep inside and not allow them to flow away, I will become sick, I will continue growing, I will not move on with my life. Here are the side effects of not forgiving and forgetting. Cancers, illnesses, mental illnesses, weakness, being stuck where you are at, repeating those hurts <<<— because you never learned from them and allowed them to go on. When we keep a pain close to our heart, we are holding a sickness close to us. You don’t have to walk around thinking to keep this hurt, or I’ll be hurt again. YOU can damn well count on being injured still if you do just that!!
Now we are at the point where we are healing, forgiving ourselves as well as others, we are allowing the past, limited thoughts to go. The weapon is here for us to use. We have two voices in our heads, there is the first voice that says oh I want to do that, or I should do that. Then a second view shows up in just seconds that tells you why you can’t do that, that is the voice you need to allow it the sadness and say it that you love it. That second voice that tells you why it might not work out, or that it has the reason why you shouldn’t is the voice from your past hurts. The ghost of lifetimes past.
The voice from the ghost of past hurt lifetimes was there to help us survive being eaten from our caveman days. You and I don’t need that anymore, we have MR. Intuition and heart. They are there to help us go after our dreams and keep us safe. The ghost of past hurt lives is not like it means to, there to keep you from your goals. This secret weapon is how you get to shut down the Ghost from past life hurts voice.
Example: I had written about how I am worried about being around my ex and his wife. I listened to what the Ghost from past hurt lives had to say, it showed me feeling hostile towards my ex and his wife because of previous issues, I saw in my mind that I was fighting with them about past problems that they had lied about me. This is where the secret weapon came in. All I said once this image had played through and I felt those emotions come up of fear, uncertainty, anger, and resentment. I said That is great, thank you for bringing that feeling and the past thought up so I can love it and heal it!!
The issue that had been there faded out and I didn’t feel the fear, resentment, and panic of being around them. I lost those feelings, in fact, they have no control over me in any way. It was me who had given them that power, and it was I who could take it back. The crazy thing is that they have no idea I was having these thoughts, it doesn’t matter to them in anyway what I am thinking. It is all inside of my head.
This secret weapon can with every negative thought, hurt, past views of someone or something change it into a loving feeling. My opinion of having any issues with these two are from my previous worries, I can change those thoughts by loving those ideas. I can change who I am by loving me and healing me. It has nothing to do with them, it has to do with me. I can live thinking that everything that happens to me is all outside of me or I can face myself and realize that I have control of my life, my destiny is not dictated by outside forces. If I want to love, I can, or I can be angry and allow external things to affect me. I can hang onto those past hurts and let them limit me, or I can heal them and be limitless.
There is no rule outside of you, be it a religious belief, parent taught theory, society taught the idea that has any control over you. The controlling in your life is from the belief inside of you that has you thinking that those outside beliefs are yours! When you heal the past, limited, fake views you have, you wake up to the freedom you had no idea you were able to live.
I can now say whatever is on my mind. I know that it will come from a loving place, not the past, fear-based limited belief system I once had. I feel more from my heart when I want to make decisions I was taught not to go with my heart but to go from the past feared based voices I once listened to. I now that I am saying this over and over, I am in amazement that I have this excellent weapon to help me to continue to heal, and manifest more love into my life than I ever thought possible. I love that!!
I love the scary feelings that come up, the second-guessing I do when it comes to making a choice in my life. I love the Ghost from past hurt times. Those things are looking after me, those things are helping me to grow in confidence in myself. I love who I am discovering. I miss those who are fading away as I become, but I have hope they will find their way just as I am and we will see each other again. I know in my heart I will see them in spirit. I love that they were there to help me grow, either through the expectations, I had of them not hurting me and only loving me. I can forgive them as well as myself. I can allow the past to go, I don’t have to remember all the hurts.
It is scary to us when we are changing our minds can comprehend what we are losing but not what we will gain on the other side. I miss those who are fading away as I grow, but I have hope they will find their way just as I am and we will see each other again. I know in my heart I will see them in spirit. I love that they were there to help me grow. I can forgive them as well as myself. They didn’t break my heart they shattered my expectations. I can allow the past to go, I don’t have to remember all the hurts.
I love that I am able to write this for me, and if it touches just one person and helps set them free, wow what a cool gift I gave them and me.
Love and light,
WWYHS (What would your Heart say)