The Herxheimer Reaction is a short-term (from days to a few weeks) detoxification reaction in the body. As the body detoxifies, it is not uncommon to experience flu-like symptoms including headache, joint and muscle pain, body aches, sore throat, general malaise, sweating, chills, nausea or other symptoms.
How does this apply to life I asked myself this morning?
I believe that we can have Herxheimer reaction when ever we detox or have a realization, of something going on in our life that has either stagnated us or is not for our betterment. Job, lifestyle, diet, relationship, illness, prescriptions meds, lack of sleep, chronic pain, diseases, lack of exercise due to all the above, and you add your list here ________. If this space is not enough room please use a separate sheet of paper and attach.
Life as I have been discovering should not be all the above, yet being born in a sick World has had me have just about all of these illnesses one time or another in my life time. To break the cycle one has to detach themselves from the blood source. And that can be pretty harsh on a mind that has been use to sickness. So then as you start to remove the ick out of your life you start to get the Herxing.
This is a normal, and even a healthy reaction, that indicates that parasites, fungus, viruses, bacteria or other pathogens are being effectively killed off. It also means your mind is changing the way it works with all these stressors that have invaded the body due to the way you perceive the world, right?
The biggest problem with the Herxheimer reaction is that people stop taking the supplement, medication, meditation routine, exercising, change in diet and growth that is causing the reaction, and thus discontinue the very treatment that is helping to make them better. Why?
I believe it’s because we don’t like to suffer even though we are suffering already, but have become accustomed to it. I also believe our mind tricks us into thinking a certain time is adequate and that we have plateaued and this is as good as it will get.
I have been meditating for well over a month, not for two hours a day but I am finding that I can meditate pretty much anywhere. I find that when I write, cook or do dishes I can have some pretty awesomely deep conversations with myself. I listen to JP sears and Kyle Cease quite a lot and read their books. Right now they just have what I am needing to hear to help me on my journey of self-healing and discovery. I have found that certain people will come and go on an as needed basis.
I have been having some harsh herxing this past week. I am purging something out of my mind and my body.
I started on my Lyme disease supplements a couple of days ago as well and I know they make me feel sicker at times. I made up my mind that I will be pushing through the discomfort for at least a 100 days. Oh LORD give me the strength, not only do I have to deal with the die off, but I don’t have the support from my other half, that I would like. It is like I have to fight to get well from not only my sick mind-set but others around me as well. I think we all have been there and thought it would be much easier to give up, stay sick or stuck and fade from the world, instead of I will be fighting those I thought would help me succeed in what I have been challenged to journey through.
This leads me to another thought, on how a couple should be there for one another, it’s not wrong it’s just how I feel.
I hate that feeling of mourning the loss of my expectation that I had put on the other person. Time to acknowledge, learn and let go, no anger because they did not live up to my thoughts on how I thought they should have been. I am super thankful for all they have taught me, truly I am. I also know that it is OK to let go and move forward sometimes with out them.
I find that I am having another herxing reaction at this moment to the changing of what once was my limited thinking on how someone should be like I think they should be. Laughing
I had a thought come to light yesterday as I cleaned the house, washed the dog, water the yard, cooked dinner and cleaned up after, what if the person you are with is supposed to enjoy what you are doing and they are not. They may be the one working outside the home, or maybe you both work outside the home. What ever you do they get to live through you and visa versa. An example… The stay home worker or super ill person is the one you get to talk to and live through their day and walk with them through their journey. I know I like to hear about other Peoples days!! Were we not to share our lives together??!
How many times I have felt guilty because I am home bound and made to feel badly because of it. WHY? Why do we feel the need to judge instead of look at things with new eyes like that of a childs. No no no-no, we are to busy hating and despising that person, we are to busy being jealous, we don’t want to feel or see that we were brought a new way to look at life through the life of someone else. WE have been blindly taught to look down our noses at those who suffer or don’t live up to our expectations. You don’t have to take on the problems of the earth, you are to only open your heart and feel the emotions and learn from that which comes up in front of you.
I know there are those who have been blessed or cursed with an illness, all in the way you see it, but we don’t think with our hearts and we should!!! Do you have to stay in a situation that is causing you more sickness, NOPE that is a no brainer. Yet why do we have to be mean in a relationship when we both individuals know that this should have ended. Can we not be loving enough to work our way to a place that is best for us both. The answer is yes! But most are so self-absorbed that they don’t care!
Herxing reaction is that feeling or heart-break and walking crying, waking up with your heart hurting from the feelings you have because of the loss you feel towards that someone you loved and had planned on having in your life for a life time. Whether it was you who made the decision to let go of…. enter situation here…. relationship, job, or what ever circumstances that you felt you needed to change or someone helped you let go, even if you felt you were not ready, remember it was to help in your heart growth.
No I didn’t get married figuring I would become extremely sick and learn that this person is not here for me in this phase of my life, or maybe he is, he is just helping me be stronger on my own. Thank you for helping me find that out.
I still love him and am grateful for all that he has taught me. I just know in my heart he and I are not helping each other grow. You can mourn the relationship while your still in it, I am finding out. I get real quiet and I feel the loss of my dream of how I thought love was supposed to be. It was a fallacy in my limited thinking that came up with the thought. It feels like a death is happening and your mind is trying to tell the heart that it can work though it, even if it is dead, and starting to stink and getting really rotten. Yet we know this and have felt it but still we walk past one another in the house like the walking dead.
The fear of feeling has become the new way of this world. OMG to have to face Herxing is about as big of night mare as one can go through. Our bodies have pain because it’s its way of letting us know you are toxic. I am not having fun here with all the herxing, but I am excited at what I will find on the other side of it. As a child I was driving to explore, the excitement of what was around the corner always on my mind.. Then one day I settled and lost that drive.
Just had another herxing response happen about ten minutes ago. If you have read any of my blogs you have seen where I am having a huge issue with my daughter keeping my grandchild away. Today being fathers day, my son took some cute snapchat pictures of my grand baby, and sent them to me. I had asked him to send me pictures when ever he got a chance to see her. I thought I was OK with all that has been happening, I have cried till my heart about swims out of my eyes. Yet as I am yelling at these pictures I love you so much, I find that my heart hurts so badly.
My son calls soon after like he does when he is driving home from somewhere. I break down and have a melt down on him. NO it’s not up to him to fix this, and NO it’s not for me to fix. This all rest on my daughters shoulders. She needs to fix what she has done…. This is where the herxing comes into play. My heart is sick with loss, my eyes are red and swollen from all the tears, my mind is mad at the injustice going on and no one is doing a damn thing about it. I will have to let the pain, the heart ache, the undigested food in my stomach sit till it does digest, I will have to go deep and hug me inner child and tell her this will pass as well.
Anything worth having in life takes work, acknowledgement, being still and quiet inside and that drive to keep walking through the pain. I get very tired and wonder when will I ever get to the other side of this nonsense. It doesn’t work that way you continue till the day you die. I find that you recover faster though and you start to look for the next herxing moment. I am learning that means I am getting better!
Writing and exploring my life on a blank page has become therapy as well as so much fun. I love who I am finding through the words on the page. I reread the words I write and I can see and feel the emotions in them. I look forward to getting up and writing down what I have discovered.
I will continue sharing my journey with you as I step into these 100 days. Hope you enjoy walking with me on this journey as well. I also hope you find the best you can be in yourself.
Parting words: “I have indeed lived nominally fifty years, but deduct out of them the hours which I have lived to other people, and not to myself, and you will find me still a young fellow. For that is the only true Time, which a man can properly call his own– that which he has all to himself; the rest, though in some sense he may be said to live it, is other people’s Time, not his.”
― Charles Lamb
Love and hugs,